Blog number 1. Thanks to Lisa, otherwise I would still be keeping all these dirty little thoughts up in my noggin for safe keepings. Quite the first entry though...Men, Sex, Drugs, and Mexico all in one. Dios mio! Well I say lets just jump right into it.
Men. Should I even have to write anymore? I have this friend, a really great friend of mine. Almost like a brother, except for the fact that I am extremely attracted to him, and have been since we first met. I've ignored it for 9 long months, but I'm not too sure if its going to work anymore. Fathom this: The person you desperately want to be with sits on the bed beside you and tells you about other prospects in his life, but all you can do is sit there and give him the best relationship advice your little brain has to offer. Thats me right about now. Then to top it off, the random hook-ups. Yes your happy while its happening, then you wake up the next morning and realize that its just that. A hook-up and nothing more. How do you draw the line without crossing it? Say no? Yes mister obvious; but if life were that easy then women wouldn't of had to burn their bras to gain rights in this small world of ours. If only it were that easy. In actuality, you don't want to say no. You want to scream yes to the world and hope that he feels the same. Back to earth people! I have just figured out the solution to my problem, but a good solution I think not. Just cut him off. Why mettle with something you can't have? Sure its great to have friends, but I think I have enough to last me a lifetime. When will i find mister right?
I'm pretty sure almost all of my friends have boyfriends/girlfriends and are currently in steady relationships. Then there is me. Miss, "SINGLE FOR LIFE" over here. Always the tag-along, always the one giving all the great advice. The nice guy always finishes last. Same goes for people with vagina's too i guess. Otherwise I am just doomed for all eternity. I'm sorry but I've seen some of the ugliest people in the world with boyfriends. I don't claim to be gorgeous by any means, but I do know that I am not half-bad looking.(Way to make it sound mildly gross ehh) Anyways, as I was trying to say I think I'm half-decent and yet I still can't find anyone worth being with that wants to be with me. When I do it turns into a fuck-buddy situation and god knows i definetely do not need anymore of that.
Well I guess to finish it off, I've decided that I no longer need penis in my life.(Even though i know i do because of my dreams) I just think its time for me to get back to being me and not follow around some guy who can't get his life together enough to realize whats going on right in front of him(ME!!). I am sick of wasting my time energy, money and everything else on someone who just doesn't appreciate what I do. God this could totally move onto a whole other subject here but I wont bother. This is enough brain scramble for one night.
